What am I sticking to?

To be frank, I don't know what am I sticking to! I am so worried about the future.I am not happy. I know maybe it is he that is still sticking to the relationship. I mean , we are so different. I cannot get what I want from him. I can definitely tell that he will not see my blog. He even doesn't care! What he wants is a good girl to be his girlfriend ,then wife! I am so lonely! But I am still sticking to it!Why? We both are good persons. But why can't we feel each other!? What's wrong?! I don't know how long can I still stick to it! I'm going crazy!