Am I moving too fast?

What am going to do? To become a successful woman?What is success?Why do I study here?To find a better job?To earn more money?And then?Do I want too much?
It seems somthing has gone wrong inside my body.What is that?
Am I too ambitious?What I know is that what is in thepast has gone forever! Am I too pessimisitic?
Sometimes I think happiness can be so near around me.But why does it seem that I passed it again and once again?And evey time I seem to have a strong reason to lose my hapiness.If God gives me another chance,what will I choose.It seems that it is me that I cannot conquer.I don't dare to try anther route.Is that a heaven or hell?It is disturbing!