Deserved to be memorized.

Today I stepped futher to the real generation of 1980s. I'm younger. Thanks to my dear boyfriend. He is really awesome! Tomorrow will be better.

Home

I thought I would not miss home. However, I do, though just a little. I don't want to mention it as I'm so afraid it will break me down. Life here is normal for me now. Halloween is coming and we are honored to be invited to the president's house then. What kind of costume should I wear? I'd better think about it seriously.

Complicated.

I am so tired of being a member of people. I thought I am sociable. However, I am not. I'm so afraid of others' words and thoughts about me. Sometimes people will misunderstand a simple thing and I don't want to explain it as I don't want to make the thing more complicated. I want to be alone and enjoy the simple and peaceful life. However , mon told me not to be alone. It's such a complicated world for me. Or , I am too complicated for the world.

I am tired.

Sometimes I am tired as I am such a sensitive animal. Sometimes I think I am too young to know the true meaning of love. Sometimes I got hurt , but no one was with me. At that time , I feel so lonely. I am so naive. Or I try to be naive. I don't want to be involved in the complicated world. My boyfriend said I am not practical. No, I am not. I know that till now I still don't have enough courage to face the reality. I am trying to be independent, but I failed especially when I was lonely and tired. I am still not strong enough. But I believe. In the future, I will be better.